Adios Bodhi

Find a guy that didn’t like something about Patrick Swayze’s character Bodhi in Point Break, and I can tell you he has little soul. You didn’t have to be a surfer, but it helped. Bodhi always struck me as a searcher, always thirsty for knowledge and peace, but more fueled by his adrenalin and selfish desires….Sounds like me and every other guy I know. But ultimately Bodhi wasn’t afraid to be who he was. Contrary he wore it like a badge of honor as he talked about the rest of the folks inching along thru life in the metal coffins!

So after over a year of a wonderfully courageous fight against one of the  mothers of all cancers, that fight ended yesterday. It makes me think of his wife, her loneliness and emptiness. How did she prepare to be in this world without him. By all accounts they were a great love story. It also makes me think of what it took for her to fight that battle with him and probably sometimes for him. Were her needs shadowed by the dark cloud of sickness? She is just as admired as he was in my eyes. He is in that “better place”, however that looks, or tastes or feels. One day we will all know what the other side holds for us, the extension of our journey.

In the meantime, I will think of the scene when Keanu Reeves’ character Johnny Utah, asks Bodhipoint-break if he is going to break out in a chant, and Bodhi, smiling, laughs and says, “I just might”! Not afraid. I’m not so brave to be myself all of the time, but tonight I think I will chant, I will pray, and I will not be afraid. God Speed on your journey Patrick. Your spirit lives on!

Living In The Spiral

This is my first post here at WordPress.  The spiral will be familiar to most once you see the picture. It is used these days to sell everything from organic products to spa memberships. The spiral is one of the oldest symbols for human spirituality. It has had a ton of different meanings through the years. The spiral has been used as a directional device. It is found in petroglyphs throughout Southwestern Native American tribes for thousands of years. For me personally, it represents a life journey. My approach is that when we are born we are closest to God, at the center of the spiral. As life goes on we begin to find ourselves moving away from the center.  We are busy being human, having a human experience. That’s all good. We have to get out there and bang around feeling what life is giving us. As the Navajo people call Hozjo, we need to find harmony, peace and balance. For me it’s found, it’s sweet little glimpses, are found in the Creator. I move daily on the  path of my spiral, sometimes further away sometimes closer. I take my bumps and bruises and I try to nestle as best I can when Im close to the center. Thanks for listening. I would love to hear your comments and views. images

Simple Things



To find the beauty in simple things really isn’t all that hard. If someone asked you about butterflies you would think, yes they are beautiful. Sunsets, The beaches of , well any beach, everyone would agree they are beautiful. Slowing down long enough to spend time in beauty is the key. Much easier said than done for sure.

There is so much to accomplish in this life. So much to do, so we can enjoy life. Balance is what it’s all about, right? That’s what we are all striving for. Striving for it in how much we work, shuttle kids to ball games, and spend time with friends. We strive for it with our spouses, our families and our hobbies. There are a lot of lives that run at break neck speed, most that run faster than mine, but we are trying to find that balance, so the sweet stuff doesn’t get by us before we see that it’s gone. I sure don’t want to wake up one day to find that the finer things, the things that really matter have passed me by.

I think that will always be true however to some degree. I try to move through this life slower, spend time with family and friends. I share in great conversations around campfires quite often, spend time in reflection, and try to really engage the people along my path. Still it all goes too fast. I did slow down long enough to photograph the cricket shown here and spent time really marveling at how beautiful and intricate it is. I wish I did it more often. Life is a blur. We’ve heard it all our lives and now many of are sensing its truth. Savor the freshness of the morning, hug your loved ones like it’s crucial for your survival. Look an elder in the eye and listen to his stories. Watch for just a minute the wonderment of a small child. The sweet stuff is around us all the time This is what I tell myself, I just don’t listen as often as I should.

The Reluctant Christian


For a long time when people asked me if I was a Christian, there must have been a puzzled look on my face as I searched for a way to answer that question. The word Christian comes with so much baggage and expectation, and much of that I didn’t want anything to do with. I always tried to look at my faith through the eyes of someone who didn’t necessarily believe, or at least didn’t follow a Christian faith

I think what man has done to Christ is pretty amazing and many times comical. Sometimes intentions were good but many times God was just used to fill personal agendas. I wonder when looking down at the way some faiths are being lived out, if God is just shaking his head in a puzzled sort of way thinking, “y’all have missed it”. I think God gets the whole human experience in all we do, as we bounce along the bumpers of life trying to connect, to find that harmony, that union.

This may be a big limb for some people, but I’m not even sure we can disappoint him. The whole right or wrong thing. Perhaps there’s a bit of sadness when we make a decision that takes us out of that harmony, but even those are good to learn from. It’s always a journey as we move along the spiral, sometimes closer to our center, sometimes further away. But if we are intentional in our journey of faith, only being in harmony will feel right.

I have read about many forms of faith from Buddhism to Christianity. From Native America to Hindu. I think there is one Creator, and he gave us all a way to see him through our own cultures. . I am a member of a church and I find many good minds there and ones that allow me to expand mine. I hope my thoughts and beliefs will continually take shape as I grow older. For me, the walk and life of Christ is what I’m drawn to. It’s what makes sense and is what captures my heart. Most everything else that humans attach to that is suspect and up for grabs. Anything I don’t have to earn and is full of the purest love is for me. I believe we are all in this together and God shouldn’t be expected to fit in any one box. So with all of the embarrassing TV preachers, the confusion of trying to make sense of it all, I am happy to live within the mystery, and more comfortable in being the reluctant Christian. Trust your heart.