Not Currently !

I will speak for me here, but I wonder if to some degree it isn’t true for many of us. When I was a young man, I was trying to create who I was. I was doing this by sort a sculptors approach. I was defining myself or my image by what I didn’t like. I used a lot of “nevers” and “not in a million years”, and “I wouldn’t be caught dead” type of language. Like most young people I thought I was chiseling these things I stood against out of  stone, and they would carry me through my years. As anyone with some years on them that is reading this, you know how this doesn’t really hold true for the long road.

I was talking with someone the other day and they asked if I read the Bible. Well, I’m not a big Bible reader, in fact very rarely. In my younger years I would have felt compelled to state my case strongly and adamantly. Giving all of my reasons why, and if they read between my lines they would sense from me why they shouldn’t either. Fill in the blanks, I would have said I hate _____, I would never do ______. Again trying to project my image by defining what I’m against. In this situation I found myself just saying, , not currently. It kind of surprised me, but it felt good that finally at 51 I was realizing that I should be sculpting out of soft clay instead of granite. That life is soft clay, full redefinition, re learning, second chances and forgiveness. Now I’m thankful I have lived long enough to let go of “nevers”. I find great warmth and value in things that I couldn’t have in my youth.

It kind of opens life up and allows so many avenues of learning and understanding. It takes pressure off. So you may find me one day doing things I never thought I’d do ! You may see me with a Bible in hand, watching a musical, driving through Massachusetts, saying no to an island trip (ok , maybe not that), but I’m open to whichever the winds of growth and expansion are blowing. I might even wrap a fork around sushi !! There’s hope for us all. Maybe “not currently” is the way to go.

Does this resonate with any of you? Any value here? I must confess, I write this just days before an island trip, and I’m listening to Jimmy Buffett’s “Trying to reason with hurricane season”, a song I loved for 30 years. Did I forget to mention, I love traditions !!

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Can’t You See, can’t you see?

I’ve had that old Marshall Tucker song “Can’t You See” stuck in my head today. Not without good reason I tell ya. I am at that stage of life where, and I use these terms loosely, I’m not young and I’m not old. What I am is that wonderful state of in between.

The reason for the Marshall Tucker song is, I need my glasses to see small print things, like billboards ! Just kidding….Reading glasses are all over our house, but I’m not at the stage of having them with me all the time. So when I’m about to do something like read, I sit down with something to drink, the book, etc, then realize I have forgot to bring my reading glasses !! Guess I also have a bad case of CRS….can’t remember sh#$ ! It’s a bad combination or at least a frustrating one.

I’m really pretty cool with being 50. I like where I’m at. I just don’t like the things that come with the age!! Who does, right?

So I guess I’m young enough to fool em most of the time, but old enough to never fool the ones who know. I remember Joe Namath and disco. wide lapels, and when pro basketball players still wore Chuck Taylors. I’m still young enough to stay out really late on occasion (if I’m allowed the next day to recover), see movies and search for new music. Young enough to still dream and old enough to smile at most things and say “everything’s gonna be alright”.

So for all my younger friends, I can just say this “laugh while you can, cause it don’t last forever”! Your flat tummies, hip clothes, lingo, and yes your “reader-less glasses” world ! All too soon you will get your CRS application in the mail, and you’ll need to fill it out if you can find your readers and remember where you put the form ! Till then, enjoy